Thoughts with Love, a series
This past week I have been working through a chakra program created by my yoga teacher, Brett Larkin, founder of Uplifted Yoga.
Before you dismiss this as too woowoo, I suggest viewing the chakras as simply: a set of lenses. Like putting sunglasses on in various colours/tints. You can view parts of yourself better through different views.
I’m not going into the chakras too much in this post, but I will be sure to explain more in the future. Or find more info now in this explanation video: What Are the Chakras – a complete breakdown from Brett Larkin.
This blog post drops into a thoughtstream of mine while meditating this week. Some dialogue between the self, a little bit vulnerable and scary to share… which is a sure sign that it should be shared! Thank you so much for joining me.
Q: How do we not bleed on those we love
A: By healing
Go back to the little me
Love her
Be with her
Scream with her
Go back to the teenage me
Love her
Be with her
Scream with her
Watch how the emotion melts away
Emotion is meant to move
I held the root chakra in awareness
Palms in a bowl in my lap
Open and receptive
Ready?
I asked myself
Took a deep breath
Nodded
And exhaled
All the love from my heart
Poured into my palms
And I gasped
With the sheer amount of it
The love I could hold
Like a waterfall into a copper bowl
I held space
The roots of the bowl
Crawled down and out of me
Expanding into the ground
Fingers coiling into soil
I ground in to hold even more
Held the hurt
Held the anger
Held the rage
Let it pass
Ground into the earth even more
And released them
Radical forgiveness
Radical love
I used to get to frustrated with myself
Learning the same lesson again and again
Forgiving the same hurts again and again
But now I know that’s part of it
We can release only what we have digested
As I learn more about myself
As I learn more about the world
I can go back and undo those knots I made
That knot in my throat about the woman who birthed me and left me
That knot in my stomach about the doubts of my sanity as I kissed depression
That knot at the base of my skull insisting I might not be good enough
Holding space
Loving this too
This part of me
This lesson
This life
“Healing” is an ever changing journey.
Everyone has a scrape here and there, a wound they have adapted around.
Meditation gives me the space to process and move through emotion.
Healing a new layer of skin over, loving myself more and more.
If you want to try meditation, I post guided meditations weekly on Mondays!
I would love to share this tool with you.
With Love, Esta
with love , Esta 